Don't Follow me, I'm Falling...#1

I know the things I've lost are so many that I could not begin to count them
and that those losses
now, are all I have.
...only what we have lost is ours.
...The women who left us are ours, free as we
now are from misgivings.
from anguish, from the disquiet and dread of hope.
There are no paradises other than lost paradises.
Possession of Yesterday, J.L.Borges, 1985